Surprise!

When going in for a visit to the lady doctor, one is rarely up for surprises.  I was having issues with a certain birth control device that was placed years ago and had to undergo an exploratory procedure to see if they could remove it.  My doctor is an absolute hoot and the entire staff is very laid-back, fun, and easy to talk to, which makes the entire experience slightly less teeth-grinding.  An hour at the office and I got a relatively big surprise....at 32 years old, I have to undergo a hysterectomy.
I've been asked every question in the book when telling my loved ones?  Have you gotten a second opinion?  Can they remove the device without having to take out the entire uterus?  Are they taking everything?  How are they going in?  I've been going through and I am still going through a range of emotions that is large enough to cover the entire spectrum.  Is this surgery something I would have expected at 32 years old?  No.  Is it something I have come to accept?  Yes.
So the next few weeks are all about planning.  My assistant and I shot the Girls Fairy Event this past weekend and the portraits all got posted and ready for review/order.  I have booked up all of my "must-do" shoots before the surgery and arranged my volunteer time at the kids' school.  I have lined up as much as humanly possible and made arrangements at work.  My professional and volunteer life are about as set as I can make them.
Now it's on to the personal stuff...have the kids been informed?  Yes.  Does the family know?  Yes.  Have I handled all the medical stuff I can?  Yes.  Now how do I get over the fear?  How do I get past being so worried that the worst is going to happen?  Well, I learn to accept that I'm not in control and that sometimes life isn't about what you face but about how you face it.  So I am battling this small hill with both barrels.  I'm gonna turn this surprise into a party.